The journey of my life from weak to strong
My story begins with two parents that strongly believed in protecting their children. I was homeschooled as a child all the way till grade twelve, something I am extremely grateful for. I should have had a perfect childhood if such a thing really exists, growing up on a farm, playing with all the animals’ day in and day out. But I struggled with myself, with thoughts, with fears.
When I was about three or four years old I saw a demon in my bedroom and this changed my personality. Fear became a huge part of my life. I knew what the darkness held and it terrified me. I became a sad and moody teenager struggling with sexual identity. I hated being a girl and resented anything feminine or weak in my life. I wanted to be a man. I wanted to be independent, intelligent and successful and the only thing I saw that looked like that was a man. They never seemed to have all these rules that being a girl had. I made a deeply personal choice to follow the Lord, I can’t remember what really lead up to it, it was just a very distinct decision I made. I went in and told my dad and was the happiest I have been in years. That was my journey out of the darkness I had descended into and towards the happy, intelligent, successful person I am becoming each and every day in the Lord Jesus.
The lie I believed was that following the Lord made a woman weak and insignificant. Through following Christ Jesus, I am strong, I am able to stand up, and I am able to truly see myself and the world around me making a difference in lives around me.
Jesus Christ is truly the most defining aspect about me. He makes me who I am as I seek Him daily to become who He made me to be. He is the most beautiful, complex, simple, fulfilling relationship anyone can ever have ! If He is not this to you, start to seek Him! Date Him! Spend a day with Him. He is so fascinating and funny and personable and so so good! He is the beginning and the end in my life and I will only be something or someone in Him.